I am very upset that it looks like my plan to obtain an online bachelor degree would have to be put on hold because I have to support my cousin through college. I think that it's very unfair that the family expects it of me but what could I do? My cousin's mother, this aunt who is suffering from cancer, helped us tremendously financially last time so I guess I would have to repay my father's debt towards that family.
So once again, my life is going to take a back seat. I blame my own soft heart for being bullied into something that I am not willing to do. How am I going to move forward when I have external forces like these dragging me down? I do wish to upgrade myself since I only have SPM to show and even though I will not be making use of my degree if I don't seek employment, if there's someone willing to employ me, I would still feel better about myself. I know I could do it, I too could hold a degree like all my friends and I am not "stupid" just because I don't have one.
SIGH... it's all about money. Why doesn't my cousin get a job to support his studies? Why doesn't his own sister support him but just flicks off her responsibility by claiming that she wouldn't because he's not her son?
So once again, my life is going to take a back seat. I blame my own soft heart for being bullied into something that I am not willing to do. How am I going to move forward when I have external forces like these dragging me down? I do wish to upgrade myself since I only have SPM to show and even though I will not be making use of my degree if I don't seek employment, if there's someone willing to employ me, I would still feel better about myself. I know I could do it, I too could hold a degree like all my friends and I am not "stupid" just because I don't have one.
SIGH... it's all about money. Why doesn't my cousin get a job to support his studies? Why doesn't his own sister support him but just flicks off her responsibility by claiming that she wouldn't because he's not her son?
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