I have been very, very upset these past few days, a 360 degree turn from the mood of my previous post. It is because something happened that has jeopardized a friendship, a friendship that I cherish deeply for the past 4 years or so. Granted, I may not have as many friends as others due the my lifestyle but I treasure each and every friend whom I am close to but it looks like I may lose this friendship. It's not something that I want to happen but if it does, I will let it be, since I am not able to give more of myself.
I can't write too much because a blog is a too public for some issues and this person who may be out of my life soon, or perhaps already is, may read this post and put two and two together, but once again, this incident has made me question if it is possible for a single man and a single woman to be friends.
I remember I once asked a friend before if it's possible and he told me that it is not because one party or the other would demand more from the friendship. And he said that's why I have no problems being friends with married guys because they don't threaten me and the single life that I am familiar with.
I thought that I have made it clear that I only seek friendship and nothing else. I am not pursuing any relationship with anyone. I guess it is because all these while, I have led a very regimented life and I have made it clear to my parents, especially my father, that once Snoopy doesn't need me anymore, it is time to lead my own life. It is time to take control of my life.
I thought that after Snoopy passes on, I wouldn't have to live with stress again but now this happened and I have been ill for a few days, can't do anything and didn't even go anywhere. Heart sick.
I can't write too much because a blog is a too public for some issues and this person who may be out of my life soon, or perhaps already is, may read this post and put two and two together, but once again, this incident has made me question if it is possible for a single man and a single woman to be friends.
I remember I once asked a friend before if it's possible and he told me that it is not because one party or the other would demand more from the friendship. And he said that's why I have no problems being friends with married guys because they don't threaten me and the single life that I am familiar with.
I thought that I have made it clear that I only seek friendship and nothing else. I am not pursuing any relationship with anyone. I guess it is because all these while, I have led a very regimented life and I have made it clear to my parents, especially my father, that once Snoopy doesn't need me anymore, it is time to lead my own life. It is time to take control of my life.
I thought that after Snoopy passes on, I wouldn't have to live with stress again but now this happened and I have been ill for a few days, can't do anything and didn't even go anywhere. Heart sick.
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